I’m lying on my bed, cuddling into the cool, rough texture of fresh Egyptian cotton linen. I love my bed, my beautiful bed, and I’m simply lying here, gazing out of the window at the azure, blue sky. I know it’s cold outside, but in here it’s warm, and everything is quiet and peaceful.
Close by the window stands a magnificent old tree, and the breeze is gently blowing through its branches, and though I can’t hear it, I can imagine the rustling of leaves. I cast my eyes higher and see a flock of birds. I am momentarily sad as I realize they are preparing to leave for warming climes. Who can blame them, I am tempted. Instead I watch them with a detached ease, as they glide and swoop, twist and turn as one. Behind them I notice fluffy white clouds, that glide by so peacefully.
My attention drifts back to the tree and I watch as the leaves gently move with the wind. One leaf dances free and loose, and begins a graceful fall…down and down…slowly, softly floating. And although I can’t see this, I know it will come to a composed rest on the soft grass. I settle deeper and deeper into my pillows, feeling more comfortable and serene. The clouds drift, the leaves continue to fall, and I allow myself to relax deeply into the moment.
My eyelids feel heavy and I don’t resist the urge to let my head come to rest on my arms. Gently, I close my eyes, and let myself go.
I feel you near me.
I sense you’re reaching forward and I smile as your warm hand connects with me, tenderly smoothing away the errant hairs that fall about my face, as you caress me in waves…and we are breathing in time, our bodies harmonising with each touch. The warmth of your fingers flows down my neck, relaxing tense shoulders, snaking along my spine…down and down…flowing and relaxing me, and it takes me a few moments to realize that your massage has lengthened to reverently cherish the parts of me that hurt, that ache. What is it about your touch that so easily moves me to tears?
Yet it satisfies and pleases me that you have such command over my flesh. It’s easy to be with you, to be yours completely, and this thought takes me deeper still into pure acceptance…and love.
You took the life I had and gave me another one…and my taste and need for this is great. We must follow our nature, and we are similar creatures, you and I.
The way you lavish attention on me is a gift.
You know me.
You made made me all I am,
you have a lust for pleasure that matches my own.
We need it,
and of course, you want more.
You always want more.
Then I discern how your beautiful rhythm has created a lush, wet heat…
my thighs gently part,
my hips rise.
I lick my lips.
I have so much to say to you, but is it even possible to describe this feeling?
“Hush, now” you whisper.
But I have been so lonely for you.
It’s been a long, long time.
Tess Says:
December 2nd, 2006 at 5:45 pmVisit Tess
And we have been so, so lonely for you, dear Lena.
Welcome home.
Magdelena Says:
December 2nd, 2006 at 6:19 pmVisit Magdelena
Oh, Tess…my sweet, sensual Tess…
Thank you, it feels good to be back in your safe arms.
with my love,
Lena x
alwaysarousedgirl Says:
December 2nd, 2006 at 6:25 pmVisit alwaysarousedgirl
Damn straight it’s been a long time. So glad to read your words again. Hugs.
Ed Says:
December 2nd, 2006 at 6:30 pmVisit Ed
Beautiful, Lena, simply beautiful.
I always want more too…
pile0nades Says:
December 3rd, 2006 at 2:56 amVisit pile0nades
I never stopped watching your feed in Netvibes. I missed you too.
So soft, serene, heavenly this is.
Love,
Gary
Beau Says:
December 3rd, 2006 at 11:50 amVisit Beau
It’s been a long, long time.
But welcome back dear Lena.
And such a lovely post to greet us with.
Welcome back.
Take care.
B xxxxxxxxxxxxx
nina Says:
December 3rd, 2006 at 11:54 amVisit nina
Ever so gently lena my love…
How beautiful it is to read your words here in your space again, and what luscious words they are!
You’ve been missed my sweet sister.
xoxo,
nina
Magdelena Says:
December 3rd, 2006 at 5:26 pmVisit Magdelena
Thank you for the warm welcome back, I’ve missed you all immensely.
I’m going to be taking things very, very gently…I’m still healing, so your sweet patience means a lot.
Love,
Lena x
Pandora Says:
December 4th, 2006 at 3:02 amVisit Pandora
Oh dearest Lena… I have missed you so! I am glad to feel you near me again. Precious Lena.
N Says:
December 4th, 2006 at 11:28 amVisit N
How beautiful you are….
These eyes capture me… Like looking into the eyes of an angel
Oh Lena,
How I missed you…
His toy Says:
December 4th, 2006 at 1:39 pmVisit His toy
i don’t know if i’m gonna run like hell up to plow you over with a great big toy-hug or slip in that door so quietly and just wrap you all up softly and tightly… i had missed you.
What a lovely tender bit to walk into. Be well.
Welcome Back
kaya Says:
December 4th, 2006 at 3:08 pmVisit kaya
No distance of place or lapse of time can lessen the friendship of those who are thoroughly persuaded of each other’s worth.
It’s a joy to read a piece of you again.
Hugs.
Pebon Says:
December 4th, 2006 at 5:47 pmVisit Pebon
It has been so long, Lena. Welcome back. I’ve missed you.
ButterflyTemptress Says:
December 5th, 2006 at 12:31 amVisit ButterflyTemptress
My Sweetest Soul Sister,
My apologies for taking so long to respond. It was absolutely delightful to see you back, to read your beautiful post. A post rivaled only by your eyes.
I am so glad that you’re home. It has been far too long…far too long indeed.
Much love,
The Butterfly Temptress
orchidea Says:
December 5th, 2006 at 5:25 pmVisit orchidea
You deserve lavishing. And ravishing, my sweet Lena.
I’ve missed you dreadfully. Oh bliss!
~kisses~
D’jaevle Says:
December 5th, 2006 at 10:08 pmVisit D’jaevle
To miss one’s muse is a terrible thing. To find again, divine.
Welcome home.
Sabine Says:
December 6th, 2006 at 4:04 amVisit Sabine
Ahoy Magdalena,
Lovely to hear the shifting of sands from you, gently stirring and heart fully beating. I hope you have been well,
xx sabine
M:e Says:
December 6th, 2006 at 6:37 pmVisit M:e
oh my goodness…sweet Lena…what an incredibly beautiful posting. It had me holding my breath in case you vanished again right before our eyes.
Take all the time you need to gently heal, and know not only our ’sweet patience’ but soft and gentle love is there for you.
love and hugs lovely one
xxx
poiesia Says:
December 7th, 2006 at 6:31 amVisit poiesia
Lena,
Oh! Oh! You’ve come back!
I’ve been anxiously peeking in hoping that you would…Amazing the rush of warm delight seeing a new post of yours; you have been so dearly missed…and what a beautiful post indeed.
Affectionately,
poiesia
Kochanie Says:
December 7th, 2006 at 8:58 pmVisit Kochanie
So it with you, Magdelena, for when you open yourself to me, your sweetness makes me wonder how I could return to an ordinary life, as if I could ever desire such a thing.
Kochanie
*From White Pine: Poems and Prose Poems by Mary Oliver
swordfish Says:
December 7th, 2006 at 10:57 pmVisit swordfish
how nice, how very nice, to have you back. your blog is by far one of the most literate that i see.
you do know that you were missed, don’t you?
tea Says:
December 9th, 2006 at 3:17 amVisit tea
Lovely to see you back, dear. As many have already said (but a sentiment that bears repeating a thousand times), you have been dearly, dearly missed.
xoxoxo